Terribly Enjoyable

Hey guys. I am going to be in Pre-AP English III next year which means I was assigned summer reading. Woohoo! 4 Books...here they are:

1. Animal Farm
2. A Raisin in the Sun
3. Fahrenheit 451
4. The Great Gatsby

As of right now I have finished the first two on my list. I am reading F. 451 now. The first two books were okay. I understood most of the symbolism and deep themes but there were a few crucial underlying points in the novels that I'm pretty sure I totally missed out on. The one I'm reading now is really good. There are some really life changing paragraphs in it. I just love it. It's hard for me to believe that I'm actually enjoying this summer torture. I thought that I would copy one of the sentences that hit me. I hope this isn't against the law.

• She had a very thin face like the dial of a small clock seen faintly in a dark room in the middle of a night when you waken to see the time and see the clock telling you the hour and the minute and the second, with a white silence and a glowing, all certainty and knowing what it had to tell of the night passing swiftly on toward further darknesses, but moving also toward a new sun.

So...I was thinking about how much I liked the intensity of this book when BAMMM- out of nowhere God spoke to me. Jessie, WHY are you so excited about this one fiction novel??? Why don't you put this much passion and emphasis into my Word? The guideline for your life.

It's true. I'm not near as excited about reading the word of God as I am a novel that will fade away. Conviction: it's sad & shameful, yet beautiful at the same time. A break-through. Thank you Lord for showing me what is most important in my life.

Now Then

I haven't blogged in a long time. Summer is always a busy time for me but I have never felt closer to Christ then I do right now. He just keeps drawing me closer. Here are some things that have gone down since I last wrote.

• That "relationship" ended.
• We played 7 basketball games in 3 days. We went 0-7....
• I've been spending a lot of time with Jenn. We are growing even closer.
• My sisters came down from Illinois.
• I went to SDC...two days in a row.
• God spoke really loudly through Ricky last night.
• His message got Rach to thinking. Rachel and I spent the night at Jenn's house & we got to tie down her salvation.
• I have never felt so peaceful.

Normal Deviation

1. I'm officially in a new relationship. This is totally new to me. I've never had a "real" boyfriend. A few months ago, during TLW, I made a committment to myself & God to not date until I found a guy who was closer to Him than I was. I've found him. The guy (I'm not going to give his name) is really sweet && he is in love with The Lord. I don't know how this is going to pan out...I guess only time will tell. But one thing is for sure. If this relationship takes my focus away from God at any point it will end. That is the last thing that I want to happen. I need to PROVE my faith & I think that me & this guy will be able to help eachother do just that.

2. My grandparents are in N.C. : ( I miss them a lot.

3. Sleepover tonight at Mallory's house! I get to be in the Passion Play!!!

4. Did women paint their toenails in biblical times? Oh well. No one will be able to see from that far away anyhow.

Definite Maybe

I ate lunch with a friend today.
I really hope that I helped him.
I know he'll be okay.
Moving is a hard ordeal.
I wish he would take my advice
& seek after his Savior.