Goodbye Softball;Hello Offseason

Well...today was our first and last game in the district playoffs. We lost 3-13 to Prairie Grove. I evaluate myself after every game. Today I totally deserved an -A even though we got crushed. I only made one or two mistakes at short & I hit the ball all 3 times at bat. :D yes! After the game the seniors & some of the other girls were crying because it was all over...it went by sooo fast. Now I get to look forward to Coach Helder FOREVER...that's not the bad part (because I kinda like him). The bad part is that we aren't allowed to touch a basketball until this summer. Yep...5 weeks of strict, bust your butt Offseason. The girls from softball are so out of shape. I Can't wait. Well on the other hand I've had an amazing week. Ricky, since you are pretty much the only one who reads my blog I'm talking directly to you. Your Friday Blog really hit home. Students say they want to change but they don't let Jesus take over and get it done. They are stuck to the world. I'm guilty of this in some ways too. I was guilty of a little gossiping earlier this week & man was I out of sorts when Wednesday came along. I felt like a hypocrite listening to your message & knowing that I had been in the world that week. But forgiveness is sooo sweet & I know that I grow closer to Jesus when I repent and turn away from sin. The serving people is going good. No one expects you to go out of your way to help them so when you do they wonder why you did it...open door for talking about Him. Well that's about it for now. It's my daddy's birthday so I'm going to his house now.

Research Paper

I haven't had much homework all year. Especially since Christmas Break. Now I have to do this 5 page research paper. It doesn't sound that hard but I haven't been assigned more than 2 essays this year. I'm just out of practice. The project is: research the impact of events that occurred on your date of birth OR your birthday throughout the ages. Blah! I'll get it done sooner or later. I've been looking for something spiritual to get out of this whole ordeal...
Well. I can't wait for church tomorrow night. I've invited two people. I hope they show. :D Besides this new assignment my week has been going great. Jesus makes my life so worth living to the fullest. & my guy problem is solved if you know who I'm talking about. I don't think what I wanted was in God's plan & I've realized that if it is then He'll make it happen in His own time.

Friends

Friends are an amazing gift from God. They support you through the hard times, love you even when you do dumb things, & laugh with you over nothing. This week my Friday night consists of spending the night at Jennifer's house. Mallory & Jenna are here too. We are watching movies. It's great to have something to do on the weekends that won't get you into trouble & is WAY fun. Tomorrow we are going to Silver Dollar City!!! yeah. The best thing about Jennifer is that we share the same faith. She is my accountability partner & although it's hard sometimes to hear the truth, it's what both of us need. If you don't have someone to keep you accountable then you should look into it. It is amazing to be able to talk about Jesus to your friends at school & come up with great witnessing schemes. lol. Right now me & Jenn are "tag teaming" with this one guy. She'll plant a seed & I'll water it & we do it over and over...just encouraging him & telling him of God's love. It's truly amazing to share that type of partnership with one of your friends. I love Jennifer to death. :D One of my favorite verses is this: There are friends who destroy each other, but a real friend sticks closer than a brother. -Proverbs 18: 24

That's me & Jenn. <33

God is sufficient

Almost everyone at my school lives in the world. There are a select few that live for Jesus & then a WHOLE LOT that straddle the fence. Many high school students think that doing the wrong thing is fun and that going to church and living for Jesus is boring. I was talking to one guy about this & I was trying to explain that doing the wrong things, although they are "fun", can ruin not only our lifes here on earth but our eternal life with God. He kind of laughed it off and walked away. I hope that the seeds that I plant in highschool actually turn into something. I used to straddle the fence but then I learned that God wants you HOT or COLD. None of this in between junk. Personally, I think that living for Jesus is way more fun than drinking or partaying. (not that ive experienced that) but what could be better than being in the presence of God. my creator, savior & master. Please pray for this one guy in particular that ive been talking to about Jesus. Pray that God open's his eyes and his heart.

Aubree's Birthday Partay!!!

I spent the night with Aubree Saturday night & then we had her party on Sunday. It was really fun! I got to walk on a swinging bridge and I thought that I was going to die. We played American Gladiatior & my team lost but that's okay. The land they have is so beautiful & Aubree's parents are such a blessing. It's just a great family :D God is so alive and at work in their family. When we got to her house (like 30 minutes from Byvlle) [:0] I was at peace. I love the country. God's creation is so amazing. It was like a breath of fresh air...literally. Well, anyhow...we had a lot of fun and I think Aubree enjoyed how it turned out. If you want to see some pictures just go to my facebook page and check them out.

Not Caring is a Good Thing

I do not know why I haven't come to this realization until now, but who stinking cares what people think about you: not me!!! God is AMAZING...and He is the only thing I need. I don't need to impress people or act "cool" all of the time. Be crazy, spontaneous, && a Jesus Freak all of the time!!! Yeah! Witness...tell everyone about your Jesus. I don't want their blood on my hands. How about you? Be yourself. <33 We are only on this earth for about 80 yrs. & no one is going to remember us in a century anyhow. Why go around stressed and self-conscious??? Be Happy :D .Love.Dance.Breathe. The only person I need to make happy is Jesus. Be nice to everyone. Give compliments. Lift people up. Pray. Smile. Break down at Jesus' feet. Just give it all to Him && live your life to it's fullest in His name. This was written for me. I'm not giving everyone a speech on how to live. I love all of you guys.

Thanks God

At school today almost everyone was dead. I don't know if it was the weather or what but no one had any energy what so ever. After I got to mi casa I was thinking about me & God. I have the desire to be just like Christ but I only take the most necessary steps to get to Him. For the past few weeks I haven't been on fire like I used to be. For instance...today at softball we had a team meeting to discuss some hard feelings between team members, and I asked if I could close the meeting in prayer. I was being sincere but it just felt fake, like no one was taking me serious. I don't know why that affected me but it did. I know that the devil is trying to get me down but I am determined not to let him. The prayer that I always have is "God, please be real to me. Consume me. Break me down. Bend me to Your will. Guide every aspect of my life. I love You." I'm sick of just going through the motions. I want to get to the point where Paul was at. I want to be willing to die for my faith. I want to STOP living for this horrible world && only live for my Jesus. Sometimes my mind is so pessimistic that I only focus on the bad things in my life. That is stopping right now. I have so much to be thankful for. Here are just a few: God has blessed me with An amazing mother, a loving father, great grandparents, awesome cousins, a fantabulous Youth Pastor (& wife), a rock of a house, a great chance for education, tons of food, lots of love, the smartness to not do drugs or alkeyhall, && a Savior aka Wonder Counselor. Wow. What else can I say. Jesus is amazing & he is all I need. Please pray that I will sincerely seek Him in all that I do.

My Past

I wrote this a long time ago & thought that I would post it so that you could see how I used to view this world...its really weird to go back and read things from your past...



God...my savior, redeemer, healer, daddy. shouldnt he be right in front of me all the time. RIGHT in front of my face. i should feel that close to him right? sometimes i dont. i feel like im talking to the ceiling, FAITH....i know he's listening, im told that he is.....why dont i feel it. sometimes im on a spiritual high, and other times im dry.......im told, dont wear your emotions on your sleeve, dont trust your emotions because they are always changing. Just keep believing in God....the one who never changes.....WHY do i question this world and the things in it soo much. it should be simple, black and white, but its not. why are people trying to go so into depth to explain and decipher the things of this world when all they need to do is turn to Jesus. Why? all it does is just screw everyone else up and make them question their faith. Why is the word "christian" taken oh soooo for granted now. if anyone is asked what religion they are....they are a christian.....NO YOU ARE NOT. dont say it if it isnt true. Im afraid to use that term because of how some people mis construe it. Yeah, im a christian, and then theyll go party and cuss and gossip and all of that is okay because were sinners....But they wont REPENT. Oh God, help me...see everything in black and white. you are who you are. you are the I AM. We should be the salt of the earth,......we should perserve and sting when we tell the truth...when the world hugs us they should feel Jesus Christ's heart pounding within us.....why is it sooo hard. Are you sure youre saved, are you sure youre going to heaven...is that all you care about, NOT going to hell? do you care about the man who DIED for you? Why...? WWJD.....stop the thoughts the curse words the junk that is ruining our world today. I just want to feel your presence again. i want to love on you........ I want to put out all of my faith and trust in you....its not that we dont have faith, its just that the span it is alive for is so short. so many other things going through my head......everything is blurry, i cant make it out, but i know it is there. devil GET AWAY from me & my town & my family & my friends. GET AWAY. Impress tons of hate into me God. Hate towards evil doings and hate towards things that take me away from you. lord........break me. I hate pride. I love you. PLEASE make it simpler.
Until tomorrow.
-Your daughter

Prom

So guys...Prom was last night. It wasn't as big of a deal as I thought it was going to be. It was pretty fun though. I learned that I have no rythm what so ever but dacing was still amazing. I'm dreading being a Junior class officer & actually having to plan the whole ordeal. We are actually contemplating having Prom 2009 at the Basin Park Hotel & having trolleys transport ppl from their cars to the Hotel...tell me what you think. My legs hurt so much after last night from standing and dancing. Then when I went to Prom Promise I fell on my knee & I swear I heard it crack open. : ( My loving youth pastor did nothing but laugh. :D. Prom Promise was really fun. I loved the egg-hunt. I won $100! yeah. Chelsea is my hero for organizing all of that. Jennifer & Shaun were with me all night. We had a blast...kinda. Anywho. I got to bed by 5. I felt like blah. I really feel like my blogs have been inadequate lately. Like I should be writing about passionate things that are of infinite interest. Oh well. More of that later.

Prom 2008: complete