Have you ever...

Hello. Today is amazing. For some reason I have been really happy & giddy since I woke up. My head is full of so much stuff I just don't know what to write about. I've been thinking about so much lately.

Jesus is a really cool guy. Have you ever felt like you are close to Him but then again you are not. Have you ever felt like the time you spend alone with Him is very sincere but when you get around people you feel fake for some reason. Have you ever felt like this world is an immensely confusing place and that you have the answer to everyone's problems but for some reason it's not easy to share. Have you ever felt like you have so much to express to this world yet you hold back. Have you ever doubted your faith? Have you ever felt like your life is amazingly perfect with God in it yet there is something missing?

I've been facing these questions and I would love to tell you right now that I have the answers, but I don't. I think that some of it is Satan getting into my head. Mostly, I think that it's me not giving myself completely to Christ. Why not??? I want to. Don't I??? I can lose myself thinking about all of this or just let Him take care of it. I can doubt or I can trust in God and feel His peace. I'm pretty sure that I'll never be as close to Jesus as I want to be. All I can do is keep seeking His face through His word & maybe some day I'll allow Him to heal me completely. I know I'm saved so my only prayer is that I'll continue to grow closer to him and eventually all of these worldly thoughts and questions will be cleared from my conscience.

Sorry if this blog was confusing. It was to me on so many levels but I needed to get it out.
My advice to you is this: "Don't think too much, the answer to everything is one prayer away."